Inside the Masquerade

Thanks everyone for reading and replying on my pos...

2010-11-09T14:42:08.189-08:00

Thanks everyone for reading and replying on my posts. Greatly appreciated. It certainly gives one a sense of connection and validation.

GF: I will get that Whiskey and Coke next time I am in England...which would be my first time in England :)

Well SB...thank you so very much. You have always ...

2010-11-06T11:51:13.874-07:00

Well SB...thank you so very much. You have always been brutally honest and a pleasure to read as you've found your voice and opened up.

You've walked a very similar road to me. In fact, the reasons why we started our blogs was for the very same reason!

I only have a couple of small scars left from the reason why I initially started writing but to be completely honest, I only ever feel them in the smallest sense if people mention them. My blog, more than anybody or anyone, helped to stitch me up and set me up again.

And it was free!!

As for the blog taking up to much of your time? I'm with you there. Especially when you want to deal with big issues and have to mentally feel as though your giving them 100 percent to?
That's me right there!

Its been wonderful reading you and observing the lovely woman that you so obviously are. Take care and that whiskey and coke is chilled!

you have come a long way in 2 years... keep on wal...

2010-11-04T01:49:15.803-07:00

you have come a long way in 2 years... keep on walking, you'll find your peaceful, magical self...

Good luck on your new chapter. And thanks for this...

2010-11-02T09:45:41.061-07:00

Good luck on your new chapter. And thanks for this post. It amazed me how a lot of what you said resignated with what I have been going through and feeling. Holding on and dissecting. Unable to completely let go and still not understanding what went wrong. thanks for putting that out there and I hope to read more from you soon when you discover your next chapter...

Thanks EG: Not condescending at all, thank you for...

2010-11-02T09:12:25.759-07:00

Thanks EG: Not condescending at all, thank you for recognizing my strength to go through the pain, rather than around it, as you put it so eloquently.
It seems like Nov. 2008 was a very precarious time...interesting, I do say.
I will continue to read the blogs from time to time (I just felt it was taking up too much time and I was not taking care of others things in my life).

Keep walking the warrior path, my blog sista!

good god what was happening in November 2008 to ma...

2010-11-01T23:00:56.656-07:00

good god what was happening in November 2008 to make all of our lives so tremendously affected? your situation, my father's death, a friend's major breakup, my last partner cheating on me, and other situations. powerful times and a powerful 2 years to evolve and look inward. (ps i have that RWE quote on my fridge!)

i hope you consider continuing to write, even if it's in a new blog to commemorate a new chapter for yourself, as your talent with words is really beautiful and unique and inspirational to shlubs like Me :-)

as a blog sista, i want to tell you (and hope this doesn't sound condescending) that i read your words and am proud of you. i don't think we tell each other these kinds of things enough, but you should know how powerful and amazing you are and by walking through, rather than around, your pain, you are allowing yourself to be broken OPEN, and not simply broken.

xoxo

What a great piece .. the last sentence sealed the...

2010-10-31T14:17:05.772-07:00

What a great piece .. the last sentence sealed the deal...

peace

Great post. I think my mask or masks are so, that...

2010-10-31T13:38:44.282-07:00

Great post.
I think my mask or masks are so, that I cannot-or dare not look behind. yes, afraid of what i might find in there. A few many appproaches though... but somehow, i feel if i get too deeply inside i might not like what i find. Silly, but true, too long a life pretending, or learning how to be and behave so that we are liked and accepted.

I take off a layer of my mask every time i write a poem, or every time i comment in blogs like yours...and it feels great
Hugs and

Happy Halloween, my dearest!
:)

another great piece...i've been thinking about...

2010-10-30T19:07:56.946-07:00

another great piece...i've been thinking about this concept a lot lately, trying to be more self-aware...for me it's mostly when i feel most vulnerable (as i'm sure many do) that i feel i have to put on my mask and be strong...similar to how if you don't know the answer and feel like you should, that sometimes you pretend to know even when you are clueless. because why would anyone be OK with me not being perfect, being correct, being right? that's what goes on in the mind sometimes and even though we know we'd never put those unrealistic expectations on others, sometimes we do it to ourselves. your post is a good reminder to acknowledge the mask and let ourselves take it off and admit we are ok, just as we are. :)

Yeah, that's ME! Masks hanging on the walls, a...

2010-10-30T16:02:58.960-07:00

Yeah, that's ME! Masks hanging on the walls, and I only have to pick which one(s) to wear today.

Of course that IS simplified, but you are SO good at pointing out what does unite most everyone--our
similarities.

Long ago (WW II) there was a song, "I'll Be Seeing You" my head is playing that tune right now, as you and I both are trying to make a break from here. Best of everything I wish for you, along with good luck.

You sound like you got "it" together, girl!

PEACE!
Steve E

Kim...you ARE a deep thinker. I love to read Peeps...

2010-10-30T15:57:25.266-07:00

Kim...you ARE a deep thinker. I love to read Peeps who are 'into' research--especially when it means looking into their own mind...ESPECIALLY when it is what I am feeling also.

PEACE!
Steve E

Sorry I am a bit late here...But your smart posts ...

2010-10-23T11:14:40.467-07:00

Sorry I am a bit late here...But your smart posts need to be read thoroughly- Now I understand why you said that pic at my post would suit here.
Woman, you've written the wisest letter to yourself. It must feel great to be able to write this out of your head, and share it. It must, because I am feeling it so well, as well.
Hugs
Kim dear...

;)

'Everyone loves a mystery. Life is the great c...

2010-10-23T08:27:13.560-07:00

'Everyone loves a mystery. Life is the great circle of mystery'.

That sums it up in a sentence that I just loved SB!

Amen, Kim.....

2010-10-22T05:33:50.731-07:00

Amen, Kim.....

we simply don't have all the facts, don't ...

2010-10-20T01:16:37.448-07:00

we simply don't have all the facts, don't know what lies ahead. so let go what leaves and welcome what comes. it's just easier that way...

I love 'their leaving is a gift' -the best...

2010-10-18T21:30:06.663-07:00

I love 'their leaving is a gift' -the best thing someone ever told me was that when someone leaves you, they've just made room for the RIGHT person to find their way to you.

Thanks "sick-a-roni!" I learn lots from ...

2010-10-13T22:56:55.863-07:00

Thanks "sick-a-roni!" I learn lots from you as well. I think you make a great point, that we can look to a higher power to gain strength and to TRUST that power. Trust that the Universe s there to help guide us if we believe in life enough to LET GO of our will and go with the flow of life :)

Hooked? Yep! Hooked on living! Also on being at pe...

2010-10-09T19:53:07.645-07:00

Hooked? Yep! Hooked on living! Also on being at peace, being happy...and loving.

Those things come and go, of course, but I sure strive for those goals.
And actually, i AM a pretty happy guy. Just ask me!

PEACE!
Steve E

Kimberly, I DO read your advices, learning that yo...

2010-10-09T19:48:32.598-07:00

Kimberly, I DO read your advices, learning that you also are human as the rest of us. Lots of other stuff I learn here, too.

And your take especially on self-worth, is so interesting, it is where many of us--me--fail (there's that word FAIL again!).

But ya know, I think--well, for me anyway --there IS power outside of myself (maybe inside as well). It's that Higher Power, the Creator, on Whom I rely for everything. And that is whence my power--whatever--is derived.

It is actually (again, my belief!) That Power which allows me to deal with negativity in my life. Not perfect--but it is a start, a help for me to trust that Power, and believe in it.

PEACE!

--sick-a-roni!

Dulce, you are too kind. Now only if I could take ...

2010-10-09T14:41:01.406-07:00

Dulce, you are too kind. Now only if I could take my own "wise advice". I believe it, as all my writings are from looking really deep within, without judgment & fear, to find truth in my emotions.
As for receiving an email from you - no. But I would be happy to receive one :)

BTW Did you ever get an e mail from me? :)

2010-10-09T12:24:56.609-07:00

BTW Did you ever get an e mail from me?
:)

This is the best piece of advice ever, regarding a...

2010-10-09T12:24:23.799-07:00

This is the best piece of advice ever, regarding autumn as the season to help us do so...change for better, leave behind... I wish it was that easy.. guess it's just a matter of trying.

Thanks for your always SO wise writings,dear KIM!

Oh- I had not seen this invitation... tempting it...

2010-10-03T12:37:45.943-07:00

Oh- I had not seen this invitation...
tempting it is!
I hope I will!
You are welcome to enjoy some warm weather with me too here in the Canaries, say, whenever you cannot stand that coldness any more :)

Hugs my dear!

You've written a lot about this relationship ...

2010-10-03T12:33:20.081-07:00

You've written a lot about this relationship of yours... And ever since I first found you (So happy I did) I've seen a very deep change in your thoughts, your beliefs, your growth...

I am sure you've left that hook somehow well behind... but getting rid of old habits is not easy, but oh so possible.

And then there is that thought that we are not good enough or strong enough... I really believe you are- no doubt you are good enough, and I see by your progress and process or whatever... you are experienced enough to go on and accept that some times, that 'hooking' sensation will come, but will soon vanish into the air and so you can breathe more peacefully.

I relate so much to this piece of writing that in answer to your question in the title, I am hooked on love as well in a very vey broad sense, and blogging and ...etc.

:)

D.

what you describe here is so very true, that etern...

2010-09-30T01:36:15.267-07:00

what you describe here is so very true, that eternal circle, that keeps pulling you deeper and deeper into the darkness...